guitar vs wushu, malay vs econs, self vs friends.

ok.. in the end didn't take malay as an elective and will be taking economics. econs timetable will clash with wushu and most prob won't take wushu in school. realise for everything there is a taking n letting go.. i take econs, i let go malay. i take econs, i let go wushu. sad... really sad... cos i think my heart no matter what, still prefer wushu n malay much more than econs.. haha stupid rite.. i m not choosing what i like. ok blockhead again.

no matter what.... this is a lesson to be learn. yeap.. i learn to see that one must fight for what one wants, n not let decisions be affected by others.. learn to see who are true friends.

Thanks to Siewyen, am very thankful for ur encouragement n advice.. really must thank u coz u're really the only friend who tell me that i can go for what i want n that i can do it! Thanks alot.

No matter what.. still believe in one thing.. true friends are those who help one become the best version of oneself!

hey choo just want to let u know sth... me actually may seem very irritated when u ask me so much qns that day... but i never take it to heart. really. so dun feel bad about it.. anyway me had disturbed u with lots of questions during exams period too... hee haha.

yea blockhead wanna let blockhead's friends know sth:

blockhead believes in love.. really.. the kind of love for all human.. the kind of love that exists in the form of virtues of patience, tolerance, caring, cooperation, helpfulness, consideration, acceptance, trust, integrity, forgiveness.. the list goes on. but really.. its true, blockhead believes in love. the kind of love that do not possess.. the kind of love that let go.. the kind of love that brings one into a greater freedom.. the kind of love that make one loves oneself even more.. the kind of love that can make the world go round.. the kind of love that gives one strength, the kind of love that makes the weak stronger.. it opens ones heart.. it decorates the world with smiles, it brighten up the world.

blockhead really do love.. maybe blockhead do not know how to express it.. but it does not mean no love exist in blockhead. blockhead really do appreciate those who have been patient, tolerant, helpful n caring, especially those ppl whom blockhead has told them that they actually possess 'a big wide heart'.

however.. blockhead have often see the other side of human being.. n seriously for so long blockhead have come to realise.. ppl are generally selfish.. a sad thing to say. n having to believe in the kind of love blockhead believes in.. blockhead is often being seen as an idiot. however blockhead still believe in that type of love.. because blockhead believe that only that kind of love will make the world a much better n happier place to live in.

some quotes to share:

"You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection." --Buddha

"Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier." --Mother Teresa

hmm... just read an article on friendship... and much questions have come to my mind. what's friendship?? does true friendship exist?? hmm... guess everybody will think differently... for me i have no comments... if u get what i mean... i don't understand friendship.

blockhead believes a true friend will always make one feel better about oneself, and make one find the best in oneself. so my friends... have u make ur friends feel better and love themselves more than before? have u make them discover the beauty in themselves which they don't know they have?

the first day of school just seems so eventful yet tiring for me. the lunch with my research group was suddenly changed to yesterday instead of today. intend to get sth for my labmates and shifu...so didn't get to give... intend to bring camera on the day of the lunch... so in the end also didn't take pics. intend to meet my friends to take a look at the cca fair... in the end also didn't meet. oh n i wonder where i drop my pen cap, it was in my pocket n when i took my pen out, the cap is gone and the pen spoiled... sad leh... a very nice pen u know.

anyway was really happy to see my labmates... don't know why but really happy to see them... happy to see my mentor'shifu' and the prof too. really do miss them during the period of break or maybe like what others say 'because got nothing to do' that's why i miss them. haha but u know... i dunno if they like me or not.. but i really like them alot. VERY MUCH!
they are a group of very helpful, happy, friendly, caring n wow... i cannot finish thinking of words to describe them. my labmates there is Xiuhui n Andrew, my shifu Joyce n finally Prof Philip. life in the lab can be very stressful n tiring but with these guys around, it really make the days much easier n enjoyable... esp when they are there to lend a helping hand... and to just chat abt anything we feel like.

initially was feeling terrible at the start of the lab session... coz i dun really know any of my labmates, and my clique is all at the other lab. but u see they prove one thing that the prof said earlier :"we are a very small but very friendly group"

oh.. and really got to thank Prof PC for his lunch treat, think he is the only prof that treats the students u know. first time i see him the impression is "wow... super smart person". and after this whole lab session, still stay on the idea that he is indeed a very very smart person. look at the way he handles things, handle situations, the effort he puts in to teach us, the encouragement he gives us and how he communicates with us, i can say he is a person with great IQ and EQ.

next my mentor... she is a very friendly person too! she is patient and really help us alot... she can chat alot with us too.. really.. abt anything.. she is strict when come to doing things right... but that's how we can learn rite. always feel like she's like an elder sister to us.. or maybe i m the only one feeling so.. not sure abt it. Really appreciate her patience in teaching us, her care n helpfulness towards us and her tolerance for my blurness and nonsense.
oh haha..and just found out that she actually took up karate or teakwando, aiyo forget already.. and she is already blackbelt standard!!! wow... super!

Xiuhui... i like to call her name n drag long long... haha she is very nice... was a nurse. so u got it... nurse must be super caring ppl... and she indeed is one. she is frank and that's good..she is the most humourous and cheerful among us. i like to hear her talk about her daily happenings... like the way she laughs too... make me feel like laughing together with her everytime... she can really cheer up everyone with her laughters.

Andrew... he is my project partner too. a very wonderful guy i must say. very helpful, friendly and caring to others. yar... caring... really.. oh and he is a super neat n tidy person.. always wipe the bench till it shines before we leave the lab. shall say he got a super big wide heart, that's what i think he has got. He always help us wash up the apparatus... really feel bad abt it actually... coz i am always much slower than him... then he will help me wash the apparatus too. He jokes quite alot too... haha... really got to thank him for the patience in teaching me alot of stuff too! Thanks to him n xiuhui for asking me to join them for lunch everytime!

hmmm... what?! can't believe starting a blog... really... the idea of it was so super distant...
anyway, blockhead want to start a blog maybe because blockhead thinks that it may be good to let others know what blockhead thinks, or also to make blockhead reflect more and write more. yupz, so blockhead would like blockhead friends to read what blockhead blogs. get it?? oh.. blockheadache..