oh gosh... i am super tired out now... super tired

ever since my b'dae... many things have happened tt made me super tired out. on the very day of my b'dae, was supposed to see doctor rite after my practical... but due to some delay... i was too late and didn't manage to see the doctor at all. i was sad but was comforted by the fact that the doctor was leaving on the next day and that i could actually go again the next day.

when i went the next day.. i realised i forgot to bring my wallet so i got to contact my sis to bring it all the way there. sigh and though planned to have that day for studying my test... the whole day was spent on all these.

the following day... oh the day which i had looked forward for so long... a gathering with my clique, which we had yet to meet for so long. and just when i was about to step out of my house... the bottle leak... the water gushed out and flooded by phone. i was so frustrated that in the end i didn't attend the gathering. i spent the day trying to save my phone.. in the end.. it can work but in a super cranky manner... whereby it can switch on by it own... switch off by itself... light up by itself... and the buttons won't even work no matter how hard u press it. *blockheadache*

ok next.. many things followed in that week... missed my comlab session... then realised that the following week was actually my comlab test and i have to get my structure done... but i dun have my structure with me.. in the end... i got a wrong structure... with which i went for the test with. *sob* surely scored badly for that test.
was also shocked when i got to know that i have to complete 3 reports by the next day or the prof will deduct my marks.. i've got cca that day so i tried to complete my report when i got home which was rather late... and still i couldn't complete it *sigh*.. marks deducted again.
went to collect my nmr sample for my report that was supposed to be due the next day... but in the end the lab was closed.. no more collection till next day. *sigh* another late one again.

ok.. i was tired enough by the end of the week. super tired.

following week... went for comtest... and then another test... which i couldn't complete at all... but i realised others at least get to write sth for the last few qns of the test. i tried to keep cool... tried to ignore that fact. haha... later that week... broke my rbf during lab... couldn't finish my lab on time again.. so i returned to school to complete it.. oh and guess what.. i cracked one of the salt plate... *wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh* its terrible.. may have to pay for it. i feel so tired.

today i went back to sch for a meeting... blur me didn't bring key... nobody at home too... tried contacting my family members.. but they are either busy or uncontactable.. i am tired....

after all these... i feel tired, i feel like going back into my shell... and seek shelter... dun go out... dun do anything... just sit somewhere and rest. but maybe its the higher power up in heaven, in nirvana trying to let me know something. Its time to be a better person. to change from a blockhead into someone smarter, to be wiser n stronger. So now it all depends on my mind.

have realised the fact that amidst the loads of reports and tests.. i have neglected those ppl ard me, n of cos neglected myself too. sleeping late to rush report is definitely detrimental to health.. very. therefore having a much better time management is definitely a must!! MUST!!

A person who can't take care of oneself really can't take care of others.. really.. didn't help sis during her prelims.. she was having difficulty with math, but me didn't help her with her math at all. sigh..

from lab i see alot.. i learnt alot.. i see the way ppl do things.. i see the diff characters of ppl.. i see myself.. i see many many. dun really get the chance to talk to Joyce at all.. cos every lab session i cannot finish my expt on time.. i'm always rushing.. but really hope one day i can speed up.

Remind me of those time in lab... its not easy... but really get to learn alot. its challenging but fun...

today frens went to ask prof if it is possible to redo their experiment.. n yeah they can redo their experiments!! they must be so happy.. all of them haha!!

today met wenz n austin for dinner.. eat till so full. terrible n i ran for my bus... not feeling very well le. anyway haha oh wenz sang and there's this cd that her cca recorded.. hee... there's her inside too!!!

haha papaya n chilli conversation always makes me laugh nonstop... haha... their conversation is so funny!!!

oh ya talking abt music... how come ppl tend to think the music blockhead listens are oldies... really wonder why... ok blockhead do listen to oldies... but that do not mean blockhead only listen to oldies n no pop at all. haha... never mind... ppl tend to think blockhead thinks in a certain way... but i must say no ok.

blockhead have a fren who ppl tend to see her as a nerd.. she go library everyday.. she study almost 24hr a day.. she scores straight A's everytime... but u know she loves to listen to Jay Chou. ppl like to joke n laugh about her when they know that she actually listens to Jay Chou. hmm... blockhead actually stands at her side... coz u see... there is nothing to laugh about. yup... blockhead thinks there is much more to admire about her... yea... haha!! Jiayou girl!!